For most of my life, my faith lacked depth and true understanding. I grew up in the church, going every weekend with my family, just as four previous generations of my family had within the same congregation. I was involved in Awana, various youth groups and even the worship team; however, I found myself participating in these activities to please others, not to draw myself closer to the Lord. I felt included in the church by being close with the people, but I was not pursuing a relationship with Christ. Although I had given my life to him at a young age, went through the baptismal process, and took communion regularly, I lacked a desire to grow deeper.

As I entered high school, my schedule started to become crowded with other obligations. I chose to prioritize work, academics and my social life over involvement with the church. Church started to feel like a barrier to the life I desired and something that I’d already done. It quickly went from a pillar of my life to a ritual requiring completion in order to appease my family. I’d sit through sermons, waiting for the time to pass so that I could go be with friends on my Saturday night, not paying much regard to the service.

This cycle was part of my life until I left for school the fall after graduation. As I explored the campus, I kept running into members from Cru asking for surveys. After passing members time and time again, I filled out their survey so that the next time someone asked I could say I already participated. A few days later I got a text message inviting me to a bible study for guys from my dorm; quickly I found an excuse to avoid coming, wanting to enjoy the typical “college lifestyle”. This repeated for quite a few weeks until I finally caved and decided to go. I’m not sure what changed, but I felt like there was a conversation that I was trying to avoid. Although I ignored this group of guys for so long, I was welcomed and loved. My desire to know Christ shortly thereafter began to be a more present role within me. I was challenged by numerous people and motivated by testimonies and speakers that I heard at Cru and quickly found myself pursuing the Lord.

I’ve become more involved with Cru over the last semester, growing deeper in my faith and connecting with more believers. I’ve started to see God work in me, providing me with opportunities to share my faith, blessing me with a strong community and accountability in my actions. I feel refreshed and motivated, once again pursuing a personal and intimate relationship with my Heavenly Father.